Not For You

Duration

9:43

Genres

Singer/Songwriter (Male)

Description

Lyrics

Did you think I would lay down & die? Not for you... Words tight as darkness finds me again alone & haunted by the waste of it all. Stifled by noise. It's getting harder & harder to breathe, & I'm trying to break countless, nameless fears that have strangled my dreams & had me living my life through the pain of you. Now you see what I've done to me. This is not for the worlds that I need you to feel nor for the writing that's painfully clear. I have forced myself deep underground, & I am digging what no one will ever find. I don't need you anymore. I don't feel you anymore. No, I can't hear you anymore, & I don't need you anymore. Breeding self-ordered, or why was it prescribed if I am only to die betrayed & captive in brazen fetters, debased & used as a slave? Exposed as still a fool 'mongst the creeping of vilest worm & man, my inner strengths as poisons wielded, yet who's to blame if not but myself? Nightmares 'neath eyes blind & bottle morns that drain my time. "Vincent" my mother instructed early, the chiefest lesson of "self." The canvas lives with no one looking. The muse cares nothing of fame. She's found me here in the midnight sun, & I ask nothing of you. Not for smiles or consoling cheap adoration, not for me, & not for how I'm insane. I have lived a thousand smiles, a million tears, & like a child, on roads not meant for anyone. My favourite scene just begun. I am living what you could only dream, & thanks to you & me, I'm breaking free. Never again to be used by anyone save for the muse who longs to give her song. I'll take the fruit of sorrow under skies for 'tis held that sorrow makes us wise. Whatever wisdom in sleep may lie with thee, the critic clearness of an eye that saw through all... I trust I have not wasted breath, but are we merely mind alone, magnetic mockeries? No, not in vain, like Paul with beasts, I've fought with death. Masters' words & my own design with nothing new beneath the sun. Tragic flaw of lips & parchment. Reason for the obscure divine. I'm free in my own captive way. The soft rain cools the grave of a day. Lying here I feel that I am ever one step behind, but I walk my own way. Follow me to where it's primal & real... Now there's nothing more that I need to say. Alone, you won't find me with you today. I am digging deeper underground, & what I'm learning's never been for you. I don't need you anymore...