My Feigning Today (demo)
Album: Forever Loved...But Nevermore
By: Fishhook Garden
By: Fishhook Garden
Duration
3:01
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Description
"My Feigning Today" is a song I wrote about a suicidal experience I had during summer 2011. What I wanted to do was kill myself, but act like I was enjoying my life, so my family wouldn't see it coming. Fortunately, no stores would let me purchase a razor blade (I was going to slit my throat). There almost was no more of me. Listened to a lot of Phil Elverum and While Heaven Wept for inspiration on his one. The bridge is more Korn-influenced, but, in my opinion, that's the best part of the so...
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There is horror in my soul It must be countered I desire not your false cures Don't give me downers Soak my body in anasthesia The hurt would still remain And forget about my promises You know they were in vain The world's disowned me Concealing none of its rebuke Trapped between progress and regress This rage, I cannot defuse [Chorus] An avalanche of pain, crushing my life Mutilated, impaled by Abalam's knife His blade must slice into my neck To drain my blood and let me rest Ignorant, my associates have to be So they won't prevent my taking leave My feigning today Standing out a showcase Of pure disgrace When "fuck you" has become My favorite phrase My retribution conflagration Burns until it's out But I'm stricken once again In this universal joust When apologies and therapy Meet death in their beds You'll be at the stoplight While I am up ahead MY FEI-GNING TODAY MY FEI-GNING TODAY MY FEI-GNING TODAY Why can't I take my own life without also taking your's???
