What I've become
By: Young Holiday
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Description
Rising African Rapper, Young Holiday spits fire like no other rapper from his country of origin. Young Holiday is from the North West Region of Cameroon. In Cameroon we have rappers like Stanley Enow of Motherland Empire and Jovi of Newbell Music who have occupied the top position comfortably for over half a decade and that’s because of lack of competition from other rappers. Until the emergence of Young Holiday, none have been able to pose a serious threat to their respective thrones.
Lyrics
Intro: Young on this one men I just di laf Verse 1 by young holiday I hate what I’ve become All these girls, drugs, drinking and stuffs Am sinning every second in ma deeds and ma thoughts, Am everything I wish my son never becomes (lord) I hate what I’ve become I thought I had to change to be happy, I thought I had to chase the crowd or be lonely, I looked up to friends who were far below me (lord) Why a write di song anyway Gave up the best, busy chasing better days, I saw a blessing as a curse so I changed name, Create me a profile impossible to maintain. Mama told me never wish to be somebody else Mama told me never be a fool for those girls Then she said trust God believe in yourself Three words I cant forget, always be yourself Complicated, gave up when I had to hold on I’ve never understood the real reason I had to fear God Made the wrong decisions when the right ones were easier Chased the wrong goals hoping I will fuck Brenda Biya Beating myself so I can drink from ma own tears Run go buy skateboard forgot I had to climb stairs Scared to face the truth cause I was scared to face my own fears Lost a lot of calories chasing these girls I hate what I’ve become I’ve betrayed the goodness that I was raised in A pain in the neck they compare me to whiskey Am just like the moon, with four more faces How ma dad gone say he’s proud of a son, like me, who has nothing to show for Running back and forth, banging my head on closed doors And not long from now I will be 24 How did I become this selfish? lazy, stupid and abusive I was a kid who had dreams, cooking in my thoughts Guess I was too hot headed, they gat burnt Look at what I’ve become A laughing stock amongst laughing stocks, I stand out Its hard to keep my mouth shot, judging from the size I cant reach up to the expectations I’ve put on these grounds Verse 2 by Benny clancy What have I become I didn’t mean it like this What excuse will I give my son if he should see me like this Back in the day I never dream of even living like this I used to fight this no body knows am even like this I smoke weed, I broke free of being chained in safety Provoke me with your advice I prefer that u hate me Believe me , dont believe in me, there is nobody deceiving me For every good I count my self lucky to infinity mama used to tell me not to hang around with bad friends Now their mamas tell them not to hang around me I qoute my conscience in past tense, spit trashes In ascent Ma content disrupt, that is very bad of me I really hate what I’ve become men I’ve grown in to a crook I used to sing gospel yeah now am flowing like brew Spread the wrong message rightly so u misinterpreted That am strongly tight to urges that urge between my feet Men am a mess, and that is all because of me Something changed and something is what have become of me (wolf) I really hate myself Last verse by young holiday I thought I’ll be young for ever I thought I was getting better I thought I’ll be me forever I thought I was getting better I wish I had more time on earth I blame God for what I’ve become, but maybe I should blame myself For he gave me everything and I just messed up Peace And to any body out here listening right now We just confessing sins
