To Feel Alive

Duration

2:48

Genres

Alternative Hip-Hop

Description

Lyrics

I look up at the ceiling, with that familiar feeling, of being a failure as a human being Therapist tells me to just keep breathing, the self-loathing will soon be leaving But here I am in the same situation every evening But I keep on believing, that this will soon be fleeting, along with the constant nose bleeding And every time that I’m dreaming, I always wake up screaming No wonder why I haven’t been sleeping, I’ve been fighting these fucking demons Going through the everyday motions like a zombie, constantly drinking coffee With shit storms coming in bigger than tsunamis I try to go through life like Skynyrd and be the Simplest Man But it’s kind of hard when you have been dealt a ridiculous hand So here I stand, as a despicable man Not too many people understand me Blender full of brandy, nasal full of candy, stomach full of xanies Head full of shanties, and my girl’s drawers are full of Plan B’s I always question my existence, and ask for repentance Can’t blame me for my acts of vengeance I wasn’t the one who chose this life sentence But I still stand in the court of life as the defendant Being controlled by an ascendance, this is never ending I lock myself inside a static room An oasis where all my habits bloomed A barren wasteland where my sadness glooms While I wait to release all this madness soon I see that I have attracted dogmatic doom Struggling for air trapped inside these traumatic fumes Suffering for eternity inside the dark lit tomb With the only light coming from the dark side of the moon You might be feeling one drink, but I’m feeling nine You might deal with life sober, but I’m dealing high You might wheel one pill, but I’m wheeling five I need to hurt myself to feel alive